I am running away!

Ok, so I have lied to myself for the past couple days…. Am I ok? Yes. I am ok. I am also still all twisted up inside about all of this and still a little hurt. Rascal Flatts song What Hurts the Most is the perfect song to describe what I am feeling like these days! I am tired of everyone asking me if I am ok! I am ok, but I am not happy, I am a little sad and twisted up but I am ok so stop asking. I have never been on this side of the fence and I am learning how to deal with it. You just have to understand I am always the one to walk away, now it wasn’t me. I never have a problem with people trusting me, I never trust them, I never date because everyone wants to jump into a relationship with me and I was stupid enough to do it. In the infamous words of my best friend, I am the girl a guy wants to marry and not the girl a guy wants to date. This is all new to me. Things I thought I would never do, say or allow my self to feel have changed. This guy was different. I can’t explain it and I don’t even want to but he was different but what I do want to explain…. Your little comments aren’t needed your questions of what is new doesn’t help. If there is something you need to know I’ll tell you and believe me I know I could have a million guys, they let me know it everyday…. But today I just want to be a little sad… I have a heart and I am a good person I need to deal with the hurt before I let someone else in my life. Yes I know he’s an idiot for not seeing what was in front of him but he didn’t that’s all that can be said and done. I am sure he has already moved on but I need my time so back off.