I miss my Dad....

There are times in life when little girls need their dads. Today is one of them, though I know what he would tell me, though I know what to do…. Somehow, I feel like he could make it hurt less and be a little easier to deal with. Today this little girl needs her dad. A great big hug and a kiss on the head was all it used to take to make everything better. These days, though I’d give anything for a hug and a kiss from my dad, the solutions for heartbreak have become more complicated. I recently realized that I have been putting people first, ahead of myself, who don’t even place me 2nd or 3rd. I deserve better and I've known that all along. For some reason I dig deep down inside and find faith in human kind. Not every time but most times, I am proven wrong. People are just that people. I can't expect every person to be like me and put others ahead of themselves. This isn’t what I want, but I am gonna take the high road. Maybe its because I look at everything as a lesson or because I don’t want to walk around angry. Or maybe its because I finally understand there are things we don’t want to happen but have to except, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we can’t live with out but have to let go of. So I am gonna hit the delete button of life. Forget my feelings, remember I was 2nd choice, and start focusing on me! Friends and love interest alike, if they have put me in a situation where I was 2nd choice, devalued in any light, or forgotten…. I am gone….